Friday, 189.5lbs

August 28, 2009

Well I reached the 180s! My goal was 189lbs, but I am .5 shy of that….oh well. I am still pretty happy about the loss, because I have still been recovering from surgery. I’m not really exercising and I haven’t been eating great, just okay.

Today Kim and I are going to Atlantic City. I better enjoy it, because sometime next week is when I start working out again, and eating much better. I hope the weather is nice this weekend, but it doesn’t look like it. Maybe we will just hang in the hotel a little more 🙂



August 27, 2009

This morning I got on the scale and I was at 191lbs. I need to lose 2 more lbs by tomorrow morning in order to reach my weekly goal. If I don’t I think I will be a little disappointed. All this laying around is getting to me more and more….I can’t wait to get back into the gym.

This morning Kim made me the usual egg sandwich and a mocha….I love her cooking. I try to help out when I can and always offer, but she seems to enjoy it. After she went to work I got a shower, went to the post office to hand in some movies from netflix, and went to Wawa for my diet iced tea. Wawa is the best store in the world.

Last night Kim and I watched the final episode of Season 3 of Dexter. It was really good like always. I can’t wait to watch Season 4. We also watched a horror movie called ‘Black Christmas’ (the original). I have seen this movie before but wanted Kim to see it. The movie is a little slow like most old horror movies, but I enjoy them. The movie freaks me out and gets me mad at the same time, because of the ending. I just wish it explained a little more at the end.

Tomorrow I am taking Kim to Atlantic City for the weekend. I got her tickets to see Black Crowes for her birthday. My aunt is setting us up with 2 free nights at Harrahs Casino….pretty damn excited about this trip. Even though I haven’t been working, I need a vacation from laying around this apartment. The weather isn’t supposed to be so great and if it isn’t we will have a good time anyways.

This weekend won’t be good for my diet I bet, but I’m really not going to worry about that….just as long as I keep on losing every week I will be happy.

Tonight is the debut of Michael Vick as a Philadelphia Eagle. It still is crazy that out of all teams who need a QB, the Eagles landed him. I’m pretty excited about the signing. I’m not a big fan about what he has done, but I can’t blame the Eagles for that. I think if Vick shows how sincere he is by helping out the community and whatever…he will be forgiven by many other people.


August 25, 2009

Today Kim woke me up at 5:30 in the morning asking if I wanted to go for a walk. At first I didn’t want to, but I used to love exercising really early in the morning. Before it got very cold last winter, I would go to the track at 4:00 am before work. The track didn’t have lights but you could see a little bit. It was just me and an old man who probably enjoy it ever since I started going. I would show up and as I passed him he would smile and say hello. I wonder if he is still going to the track at 4 am. Anyways, our walk was nice. It was about a 20-25 minute walk, with a pit stop to wawa for a paper and diet iced tea. During the walk I realized how much stuff Kim and I have in common. She is an amazing girlfriend, and my best friend.

I had an appointment today to take my drain out. All the drains are finally out! It was a great feeling getting the drain out, well…the yanking it out of my stomach was a very weird and sick sensation, but it was worth it. My doctor said I was healing very quickly and was very impressed with how I looked. Everything is still pretty swollen, including my neck which has been bothering me. I want instant results, but she said it takes a while for the final results to appear. I trust her with that, because everything else she did really made me happy. I asked her if I could have my before pictures that she has taken at her office. She is making me copies of them all so I can have just to view and keep my progress recorded. I’m going to start taking progress pictures every two weeks. I can start working out in a week which I am excited about. I’m going to be working out using the New Rules of Lifting.

She also gave me some bad news. I have to take another week off from work. There is no problem with me, it is just that my job is physical and she wants me to relax for another week. A part of me is happy to be off longer, but I think a bigger part of me is really bummed out. My days out of work aren’t too exciting. I just pick up around the apartment and think of as many errands as I can. I wish I could work out atleast, but oh well….gonna just try and enjoy the time I have off.

My doctor is also leaving the hospital she is currently at in the middle of October. This has got me really bummed out, because I just really trusted her after so much time I spent with bettering my life. The first time I seen her I was 290lbs and now I am 100lbs less, and I feel 100x better about my body. She is going to find a good doctor for me, but I know I will miss her. She is a nice lady and did great work on me. I’m glad I had my plastic surgery just in time for her to operate on me and have a few check ups.

I am really bummed out today about the news I received, and early I had a few shots of Jack Daniels. I know I shouldn’t have done it, and regret it, but it was only a couple shots. My girlfriend was going to take me out to cheer me up, but we kind of decided that it wouldn’t be good for our diets.


August 24, 2009

This is my last week off from work, I better enjoy it. Well I called the doctors office, because I was supposed to get my drain taken out. I am still losing too much fluid. Theres probably about 15-20ml of fluid coming out of my stomach per day, I know it doesn’t sound like much…but its better it comes out or may cause an infection.

I feel better, I feel fine actually. I don’t need anymore pain killers or tylenol. I may miss it, because it got me through so much boredom of having nothing to do all day. Today I cleaned the apartment a little, grilled up a bunch of chicken and turkey cutlets, went to the post office, went to wawa, and played a little Madden.

I gained almost all of the weight back over the weekend……I hate it. I still feel if I do great this week I will hit my goal (189lbs on Friday). I’m gonna do it.

I’m not looking forward to going back into work at all. I really don’t mind the work, I just hate the welcome back. I work for Boeing so its a big place and I know a lot of people. This means I will have all this people come up and ask 50 questions about the surgery, this and that, blah blah. Everyone gossips there. Everyone gossips in general. When I was out for my intestine issue there was a rumor going around that I was in a coma…pretty interesting finding that out.


August 23, 2009

Today Kim and I played tennis. We played for just about 20 minutes and I called it quits. I felt really out of shape and just didn’t want to risk anything, because I had surgery 13 days ago and still have one drain left in me. It felt good to ease back into things and I am looking forward to doing more and more every day.

I have a fantasy football draft tonight. I’m pretty pumped up about it. To those who never played in one, it is easily addictive. Its online so it will be a lot faster than it was if it were in person. It cost 40 bucks to join and the top 2 places are paid at the end of the year…pretty fun. My other league is 100 bucks and that draft is on September, 8th.

To pass the time I am going to watch some Dexter with my baby and play some sudoku.


August 22, 2009

7 beers, 1 shot of jack, and a sugar-free jagerbomb last night

It was the first drinking night I had since August, 8th. I was hoping to drink less than that, but its not as horrible as it could have been. Kim and I went to Chickie’s and Pete’s in South Philly. Its one of the best places to go. It was rated the 3rd best sports bar in the nation. We split a chicken tender sandwich with honey mustard and a big order of crab fries. It was a salt fest yesterday and it showed on the scale.

Kim and I got Season 3 of Dexter from Netflix. I was told a while ago to check out this show by my best friend, because I have a fascination with serial killers. I never gave it a chance until Kim ordered Season One off of Netflix. I was pretty hooked after the third episode. We spent the day at this farmers market called “Booth’s Corner”. It has a ton of different foods and basically an indoor flea market. We made cheese steaks tonight and now relaxing on the couch watching Dexter.

Well I guess a lot of my swelling went down from the surgery. I am very happy about this loss! I ate pretty good, but didn’t exercise at all besides one walk and a few short ones.

The last time I drank was August 9th so I guess that helped. I really don’t miss it, but Kim and I are going to happy hour after she gets done work. I don’t plan on drinking too much, but plan on eating some good food.

My goal for next week is to get to 189. If I see that on the scale it will give me such a good feeling. I will be really pumped and will just keep shooting for my goal.

I have a new challenge with Kim. She wants to lose 13lbs (9.24%) to get down to 125lbs by our anniversary on October 24th. I made mine to lose 21.5lbs (11.22%) to hit 170lbs exactly. She has less to lose, but its a little easier for guys. I am really going to try and hit this goal.

I know I shouldn’t worry too much about the number on the scale, but I believe that is only unimportant if you are right at your goal weight. I believe if you know you are overweight then what it says on the scale is important. 170lbs would be good for me……then maybe I could start my first ever bulk! I’m tired of slimming down and not building muscles. My upper body looks weak. My legs have big muscles so I am not worried about that.

When I get back into lifting I am going to try “New Rules of Lifting”. I heard good things from many people so I thought I’d give it a shot. I already did the warm up routines in that book and they seem to get me sweaty and sore. I will talk more about lifting and NROL as time goes on I am sure.

Yesterday I went for a 20 minute walk. It wasn’t power walking, but it wasn’t very slow either. I felt really good about it…I missed it. Tennis is a possibility this weekend. I know I may sound a little crazy, but you don’t want to be laying around after surgery if you can help it. The more you move your body, the faster it heals. Yesterday I went to the doctors to get my stomach drains out. One of the drains were able to come out, but the other was still draining pretty good. My doctor said it will come out on Monday….so that is kinda shitty. To be honest it isn’t really bothering me. It doesn’t hurt and I am able to hide the drain from people.

I still need to wear my underwear bandage garment on my face to keep the swelling down. It also helps “form” my new face so I gotta make sure I wear it a good amount. When I go out in public I take it off, because it is embarrassing to wear. When I go to sleep it kind of slides a little bit causing me to have pain where the incisions are.

My weight keeps dropping so I am pretty excited about that. This morning I weighed 193. The lowest weight I have seen recently was 190 so I am going to fight to see the 180s! I will tell you one thing that will truly help you on your diet. What I tell you is pretty much what helped me lose weight the most…

Surround yourself with things that will help you succeed on a healthy diet. If your friends are always going out all the time, eating, drinking…..stop hanging out with them so much. I know its hard to do that trust me. My friends and I would drink everyday. When I wanted to quit, it was so hard to stop drinking while being with them. One day I had to say goodbye. It was tough ignoring there calls and explaining to them why. I felt like I was hurting their feelings. Once I changed my friends I noticed a big change.

Another thing is to keep all junk food out of the house. Right now I am craving a candy bar or something sweet. I know if I had it in my home right now I would be eating it….most likely.

I want to talk more about drinking, because drinking doesn’t just fuck you up in one way, but many ways.

1. Drinking has no nutritional value at all…..none. The 300, 500, 1000, 1300 calories you have that night from drinking are a complete waste.

2. Drinking = turns into bad decisions. It may not effect you, but a lot of people who go out and drink aren’t necessarily going to wash it down with a salad. That cheese steak or pizza place is open and thats where you’re gonna go.

3. Instead of your body burning calories from food, it will first burn the calories from alcohol. It sees alcohol as a poision….leaving what you eat that night to be stored as fat.

4. Hangovers. When you are hungover you tend to lay around the house doing nothing all day. You miss a whole day of working out. To be honest, its hard to also eat right the day after a drinking night. Working out is very important in a healthy diet.

That is 4 good reasons why drinking is bad for you. I am not saying to stop drinking alcohol forever. You are human. Many of us drink and that is fine. Just learn to drink in moderation. Whatever your goals is, adjust your drinking so you can reach that goal. Right now I think if I drink once a week I think I can keep dropping the weight. It used to be twice a week, but the more weight I lose the stricter my diet must be.

I hate people

August 19, 2009

I hate people
I hate people who lie
I hate people who cheat
I hate people who leave their turn signal on when their not turning
I hate people who don’t turn their turn signal on at all
I hate slow drivers
I hate lazy people
I hate physically ok people who walk slow as hell in stores
I hate the bitch behind the counter who doesn’t say hello or smile at you
I hate drug addicts
I hate people with no motivation
I hate sluts who wear skimpy clothes and get pissed off when people look at them
I hate whores who cheat on their boyfriends
I hate dickheads who cheat on their girlfriends
I hate motherfuckers who hit their girlfriends
I hate 95% of todays new music “artists”
I hate republicans and democrats who are always 100% for their party, not lending an ear to listen to another opinion
I hate people who try to shove their religion down your throat
I hate people who litter
I hate homeless people who beg for change to go buy a 40 on the corner
I hate rich people who say money isn’t everything
I hate people who are on welfare driving better cars than I do
I hate hypocrites
I hate people who go out of there way to hurt someone
I hate people who ignore me when I say hello to them
I hate people who are impatient with other people
I hate people who can’t be responsible for their own actions
I hate the girl who dates the prick who is friends with the sweetest nicest overweight guy who likes her and bitches why she can’t find the right guy
I hate people who chit chat at the gym holding me up
I hate feminists who want equal rights but always want you to pay, hold the door open for you, take care of you
I hate people who steal
I hate people who drive while talking on the phone
I hate people who start fights
I hate hot shots
I hate crooked cops
I hate people who gossip

I hate a lot, but as long as my love far outweighs the hate I will never hate myself.


August 18, 2009

I am a little worried about my neck lift. The results so far are not what I had in mind. Its better then it looks but not by much. I hear that it takes weeks for the swelling to wear down and takes 3-6 months for the “final results” to appear….so I could just be worrying over nothing.

I feel really good today. Tomorrow I have a doctors appointment to get my drains out. I am not so sure they are ready to come out, because I am still draining fluid quite a bit :(. I am getting Season 3 of Dexter tomorrow from netflix. This show has really grown on me. I’ve always been a fan of learning about serial killers, so this show is right up my alley. Netflix is great for anyone who has spare time and love watching movies….I definitely recommend it.

I have lost 5lbs since Friday. It is mostly water weight from all the swelling so I hope it keeps coming off :). This week I have been tracking again using My diet hasn’t been to great since I had surgery. Being out of work kinda fucks up your regular schedule. I am eating way too many carbs and my sodium level is high. Starting fresh is hard. Not working out is putting a damper on my diet as well.