April 15, 2010

Today I went for a walk at Ridley Creek State Park. The park is beautiful and it has a nice trail for walkers/joggers/bikers. Kim and I walked 4.3 miles. It felt good to get some exercise in this beautiful weather. A few days ago I lifted and tomorrow will do the same.

My routine isn’t huge, but I think its decent for starters.
Bench Press
Overhead DB Press
Barbell Curls
DB Rows

I have to start doing it 3 times a week now instead of 2. I have to add more cardio in my weeks. I have to add more protein shakes at night like I used to before. I’m slowly getting back on the right habit of things and it feels good.

Tomorrow Kim, I, and a few other people are going to the Phillies game. I am sure there will be lots of tailgating involving eating and drinking. I told myself that this is the last cheat day until I go to Mexico. We go to Mexico May 1st. I know its not a long period of time, but I don’t remember the last time where I didn’t drink on the weekend, and next weekend will be a true test to me.


Friday, 204lbs

April 9, 2010

This week I lifted weights twice……..havent done that in a long time. It felt really good to get my muscles nice and sore. I’m not too worried about my weight…I feel like my mind is getting back on track. Your weight loss/diet/goals…whatever always start with the mind. If your mind isn’t there then you will get no where.

I plan to keep my routine at an every other day pace. I have been going for long walks on off days which is good. I just moved to a town where there are a ton of big hills. It keeps me sweating.

This morning I went for a walk before my doctors appointment. The appointment was just a check up to see if all the scars are healing up nicely…which they are. My neck has some areas in which feels a little hard and stiff. This is normal during the healing phase. It is probably the last time I will see my doctor. She is leaving the hospital, because she wants more money and the hospital doesn’t want to give it to her. I guess I got everything done just in time, because I couldn’t be more happier about the results.

I got before pictures from her office of my body. I couldn’t believe what I used to look like. It made me feel kind of emotional. All of my life I felt disgust in myself. Looking at those pictures just made me remember how much I hated what I looked like and would do anything to look better. I guess thats why I am reaching my goals. Some people have to hit rock bottom to realize they are screwing up and when I was at my highest weight it hit me.

People say do not go into plastic surgery with high expectations….because you may be very disappointed. After I kept hearing this I had my doubts, because my case was pretty bad as compared to others. Losing over 225lbs at the time I had a lot of loose skin…way more than the normal plastic surgery patient.

After every surgery I felt amazing. The results are far better than I ever imagined….and the feeling is unbelievable. Even when I lost all the weight, I still felt like a prisoner in my own body. I was far better in health, but every time I looked in the mirror I just was in disgust. The funny thing is I wanted to first meet Kim after my surgeries, because I didn’t feel like I was good enough for her. I am very happy I chose to meet her before I had all of my surgeries, because I don’t know if things would be the same….and I don’t even wanna think about it. I wanted to see her so bad I didn’t care about my appearance anymore.

People ask me about my scars. They wonder if they will go away or if they bother me. To be honest, I didn’t worry at all about the scars. I’d rather have these scars than flabs of skin all over my body. If these scars fade, great…if they don’t I could care less. I never felt better in my life and I am proud of these scars.


September 2, 2009

Its a beautiful day outside today. This morning I went for a nice walk and it felt great. My hands were actually a bit chilly. I have missed the fall and glad it is coming around soon. Yesterday I went off my diet. I just ate pretty much all day. It was all decent foods, just a lot of it. Kim and I did have pancakes for dinner which was awesome. I could eat pancakes everyday.

Tomorrow I see my doctor for a check up. Everything seems fine. She is going to let me know if I can start working out again…if so I will be hitting the gym tomorrow! I have really missed it and wish I could have been working out all this time I have been off…oh well. Getting back into shape is very hard at first. I imagine I will be sore as hell after the first workout. I will take it easy though so we will see.

Today I am going to the italian market in Philly to sell some of my dvds to this lady who runs a store in there. Its a shame how much I am going to get for them compared to how much I really paid. Ever since I found Amazon I have bought all my movies and cds there…..so cheap (even with the shipping).


September 1, 2009

My weekend in Atlantic City was good. Friday we drove up in the pouring rain….hate driving in the pouring rain. We got a free hotel in Harrah’s Casino for 2 nights from someone my aunt knows. The hotel was really nice. We hung out at the hotel for a little to have some drinks, then went down to the casino to gamble. We played roulette the whole time and we both were up at the end of the night (me 80, Kim I think near 200?).

Saturday we got up early, got some breakfast and relaxed a while in the hotel. We gambled a little and I lost all the money I won plus 50. I wasn’t too happy. How was red going to hit 7 times in a row….bullshit.

The Black Crowes put on a good show. I never really listened to them much, so I only know the old popular songs…and they really played a lot of newer songs to me. They still sounded really good and I was impressed.

I drank a good bit and didn’t eat the most healthy stuff….hopefully I still see a loss on Friday. I went for a long walk today…the weather is amazing.


August 27, 2009

This morning I got on the scale and I was at 191lbs. I need to lose 2 more lbs by tomorrow morning in order to reach my weekly goal. If I don’t I think I will be a little disappointed. All this laying around is getting to me more and more….I can’t wait to get back into the gym.

This morning Kim made me the usual egg sandwich and a mocha….I love her cooking. I try to help out when I can and always offer, but she seems to enjoy it. After she went to work I got a shower, went to the post office to hand in some movies from netflix, and went to Wawa for my diet iced tea. Wawa is the best store in the world.

Last night Kim and I watched the final episode of Season 3 of Dexter. It was really good like always. I can’t wait to watch Season 4. We also watched a horror movie called ‘Black Christmas’ (the original). I have seen this movie before but wanted Kim to see it. The movie is a little slow like most old horror movies, but I enjoy them. The movie freaks me out and gets me mad at the same time, because of the ending. I just wish it explained a little more at the end.

Tomorrow I am taking Kim to Atlantic City for the weekend. I got her tickets to see Black Crowes for her birthday. My aunt is setting us up with 2 free nights at Harrahs Casino….pretty damn excited about this trip. Even though I haven’t been working, I need a vacation from laying around this apartment. The weather isn’t supposed to be so great and if it isn’t we will have a good time anyways.

This weekend won’t be good for my diet I bet, but I’m really not going to worry about that….just as long as I keep on losing every week I will be happy.

Tonight is the debut of Michael Vick as a Philadelphia Eagle. It still is crazy that out of all teams who need a QB, the Eagles landed him. I’m pretty excited about the signing. I’m not a big fan about what he has done, but I can’t blame the Eagles for that. I think if Vick shows how sincere he is by helping out the community and whatever…he will be forgiven by many other people.


August 25, 2009

Today Kim woke me up at 5:30 in the morning asking if I wanted to go for a walk. At first I didn’t want to, but I used to love exercising really early in the morning. Before it got very cold last winter, I would go to the track at 4:00 am before work. The track didn’t have lights but you could see a little bit. It was just me and an old man who probably enjoy it ever since I started going. I would show up and as I passed him he would smile and say hello. I wonder if he is still going to the track at 4 am. Anyways, our walk was nice. It was about a 20-25 minute walk, with a pit stop to wawa for a paper and diet iced tea. During the walk I realized how much stuff Kim and I have in common. She is an amazing girlfriend, and my best friend.

I had an appointment today to take my drain out. All the drains are finally out! It was a great feeling getting the drain out, well…the yanking it out of my stomach was a very weird and sick sensation, but it was worth it. My doctor said I was healing very quickly and was very impressed with how I looked. Everything is still pretty swollen, including my neck which has been bothering me. I want instant results, but she said it takes a while for the final results to appear. I trust her with that, because everything else she did really made me happy. I asked her if I could have my before pictures that she has taken at her office. She is making me copies of them all so I can have just to view and keep my progress recorded. I’m going to start taking progress pictures every two weeks. I can start working out in a week which I am excited about. I’m going to be working out using the New Rules of Lifting.

She also gave me some bad news. I have to take another week off from work. There is no problem with me, it is just that my job is physical and she wants me to relax for another week. A part of me is happy to be off longer, but I think a bigger part of me is really bummed out. My days out of work aren’t too exciting. I just pick up around the apartment and think of as many errands as I can. I wish I could work out atleast, but oh well….gonna just try and enjoy the time I have off.

My doctor is also leaving the hospital she is currently at in the middle of October. This has got me really bummed out, because I just really trusted her after so much time I spent with bettering my life. The first time I seen her I was 290lbs and now I am 100lbs less, and I feel 100x better about my body. She is going to find a good doctor for me, but I know I will miss her. She is a nice lady and did great work on me. I’m glad I had my plastic surgery just in time for her to operate on me and have a few check ups.

I am really bummed out today about the news I received, and early I had a few shots of Jack Daniels. I know I shouldn’t have done it, and regret it, but it was only a couple shots. My girlfriend was going to take me out to cheer me up, but we kind of decided that it wouldn’t be good for our diets.

Yesterday I went for a 20 minute walk. It wasn’t power walking, but it wasn’t very slow either. I felt really good about it…I missed it. Tennis is a possibility this weekend. I know I may sound a little crazy, but you don’t want to be laying around after surgery if you can help it. The more you move your body, the faster it heals. Yesterday I went to the doctors to get my stomach drains out. One of the drains were able to come out, but the other was still draining pretty good. My doctor said it will come out on Monday….so that is kinda shitty. To be honest it isn’t really bothering me. It doesn’t hurt and I am able to hide the drain from people.

I still need to wear my underwear bandage garment on my face to keep the swelling down. It also helps “form” my new face so I gotta make sure I wear it a good amount. When I go out in public I take it off, because it is embarrassing to wear. When I go to sleep it kind of slides a little bit causing me to have pain where the incisions are.

My weight keeps dropping so I am pretty excited about that. This morning I weighed 193. The lowest weight I have seen recently was 190 so I am going to fight to see the 180s! I will tell you one thing that will truly help you on your diet. What I tell you is pretty much what helped me lose weight the most…

Surround yourself with things that will help you succeed on a healthy diet. If your friends are always going out all the time, eating, drinking…..stop hanging out with them so much. I know its hard to do that trust me. My friends and I would drink everyday. When I wanted to quit, it was so hard to stop drinking while being with them. One day I had to say goodbye. It was tough ignoring there calls and explaining to them why. I felt like I was hurting their feelings. Once I changed my friends I noticed a big change.

Another thing is to keep all junk food out of the house. Right now I am craving a candy bar or something sweet. I know if I had it in my home right now I would be eating it….most likely.

I want to talk more about drinking, because drinking doesn’t just fuck you up in one way, but many ways.

1. Drinking has no nutritional value at all…..none. The 300, 500, 1000, 1300 calories you have that night from drinking are a complete waste.

2. Drinking = turns into bad decisions. It may not effect you, but a lot of people who go out and drink aren’t necessarily going to wash it down with a salad. That cheese steak or pizza place is open and thats where you’re gonna go.

3. Instead of your body burning calories from food, it will first burn the calories from alcohol. It sees alcohol as a poision….leaving what you eat that night to be stored as fat.

4. Hangovers. When you are hungover you tend to lay around the house doing nothing all day. You miss a whole day of working out. To be honest, its hard to also eat right the day after a drinking night. Working out is very important in a healthy diet.

That is 4 good reasons why drinking is bad for you. I am not saying to stop drinking alcohol forever. You are human. Many of us drink and that is fine. Just learn to drink in moderation. Whatever your goals is, adjust your drinking so you can reach that goal. Right now I think if I drink once a week I think I can keep dropping the weight. It used to be twice a week, but the more weight I lose the stricter my diet must be.