4/15/10

April 15, 2010

Today I went for a walk at Ridley Creek State Park. The park is beautiful and it has a nice trail for walkers/joggers/bikers. Kim and I walked 4.3 miles. It felt good to get some exercise in this beautiful weather. A few days ago I lifted and tomorrow will do the same.

My routine isn’t huge, but I think its decent for starters.
Squats
Bench Press
Overhead DB Press
Crunch
Barbell Curls
DB Rows

I have to start doing it 3 times a week now instead of 2. I have to add more cardio in my weeks. I have to add more protein shakes at night like I used to before. I’m slowly getting back on the right habit of things and it feels good.

Tomorrow Kim, I, and a few other people are going to the Phillies game. I am sure there will be lots of tailgating involving eating and drinking. I told myself that this is the last cheat day until I go to Mexico. We go to Mexico May 1st. I know its not a long period of time, but I don’t remember the last time where I didn’t drink on the weekend, and next weekend will be a true test to me.

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Friday, 204lbs

April 9, 2010

This week I lifted weights twice……..havent done that in a long time. It felt really good to get my muscles nice and sore. I’m not too worried about my weight…I feel like my mind is getting back on track. Your weight loss/diet/goals…whatever always start with the mind. If your mind isn’t there then you will get no where.

I plan to keep my routine at an every other day pace. I have been going for long walks on off days which is good. I just moved to a town where there are a ton of big hills. It keeps me sweating.

been a while

March 31, 2010

I forgot all about this online journal.

Latley I haven’t been tracking, haven’t been eating as good or working out. I gained some weight. The holidays threw me off and never got back on track. I pretty much stay around 200-205.

I need to get back on track and will do so.

Well Friday I weighed in at 196.5lbs. I am up 7lbs from the lowest I hit a few weeks ago….not too happy about that. The good news is I am not ALL TOO worried for some reason. I know my diet hasn’t been perfect and I have been lifting a lot recently. Whenever I first begin lifting, I usually gain weight the first week or two, weird.

Last night Kim and I went to the bar and drank a good amount. Its funny how good we do together…..we can do just as bad. Both of us love good foods and to drink……I guess its good we have more stuff in common. I wore a nice dress shirt and actually tucked in. I enjoy getting new clothes now since I can find things in my size. It makes me feel good to dress up and in my eyes I look good compared to what I once was. I went to Kohl’s with Kim this morning to get some pants and long sleeve shirts.

This morning I had a hangover and am really craving bad foods. I even made myself a Bloody Mary. I have never had one before, but I tasted one a while ago….not bad.

Monday

September 14, 2009

I haven’t updated my journal in a bit. My grand mom died on Friday. I feel really bad, because she is one of the sweetest ladies I have ever met. I haven’t been doing great on my diet either. I had more cheat days than not and am not too happy about that. Going back to work on Tuesday was a drag, and now I am off until Thursday. I get 3 days paid for my grand moms death….so I was off today, tomorrow, and Wednesday.

I have done 3 work outs so far at the gym….not much, but it has really made me sore. The last time I worked out was yesterday and I could tell that the soreness isn’t too bad. That is great news, because I will be able to work out more frequently.

I’m really happy about the Eagles victory yesterday. I drank a good bit with Kim, and after the game we went to this local bar. They were giving away an authentic Jeremy Maclin jersey. Each drink you ordered you would get a ticket. We were only there for maybe 2 hours, but racked up about 12 tickets lol. We ended up winning! I couldn’t believe it. I never win anything like that. I don’t ever think I have won a raffle in all of my life….it was a cool feeling. I wonder what the people at the bar were thinking when we won. They were probably there much longer than us.

pictures

September 8, 2009

open with warning

http://i744.photobucket.com/albums/xx90/Fieldsy84/ry1.jpg – before

http://i744.photobucket.com/albums/xx90/Fieldsy84/ry2.jpg – before

http://i744.photobucket.com/albums/xx90/Fieldsy84/ry3.jpg – before

http://i744.photobucket.com/albums/xx90/Fieldsy84/ry6.jpg – 2003

http://i744.photobucket.com/albums/xx90/Fieldsy84/8-24-09-1.jpg – after

Tuesday, back to work

September 8, 2009

Well today was my first day back at work. I was looking forward to it and I wasn’t. I already miss not having anything to do all day haha. People welcomed me back and said I looked real good which was nice to hear. I thought I was going to get 20 questions all day by everyone, but it was more laid back then I thought.

I was sore all weekend from one little routine I did last week….crazy. Kim and I played tennis twice which was good. Tennis is my favorite cardio right now. I even like to watch it. I am going to workout before work tomorrow. The gym opens up at 5am and I have to be in work by 6:30….I can make it.

I am going to put up some before pictures of me, with after. Hopefully this will help people get an idea of what to expect with surgery. I couldn’t be happier.

Friday, 194.5lbs

September 4, 2009

Last night Kim and I went to the bar and drank. I drank a pretty good amount….so much I lost count, probably about 7 shots of Jack and 6-7 beers. I ate a lot of shitty food too. I am real pissed at myself. I know its mostly water weight, but I don’t like failing myself. To make up for it I am not going to drink the rest of the weekend. I’m gonna eat good, but will probably have some pizza for dinner. This morning I was sore from the workout and hungover from drinking. I had about one egg today so far and I don’t have much appetite. I went for a 30 min walk and had a good sweat.

I’m tired of feeling insecure. I have always been insecure about my weight and my stuttering problem. I think way too much and I care way too much. I am tired of caring about what others think of me and putting everything ahead of myself. Its time to ease up on giving a shit. I’m not benefiting anything from it. From now on I am going to be more confident and less insecure. I’m tired of worrying and being jealous. I’m only making things worse for me. I am a competitive person and its making it worse. I’m gonna concentrate more on me.

Workout 1

September 3, 2009

I was cleared today to workout from my doctor, so I didn’t waste any time. I started the New Rules of Lifting. I did “Break In A”. I would of jumped right into the regular Fat Burning Phase 1, but I knew it would kill me and its good to take things slow in the beginning. The break in is only 5 exercises…consisting of..(with my weights)

Squats 2×15 95lbs
Lunges 2×15*(star meaning each arm,leg) 45lbs
Dumbbell Rows 2×20*
Push Ups 2×10(I struggled to do 15)
Crunches 2×20

I know its not much, but I am really feeling it. I missed this feeling. That little workout made me sweat pretty damn good.

This morning I went for a walk before my doctors appointment. The appointment was just a check up to see if all the scars are healing up nicely…which they are. My neck has some areas in which feels a little hard and stiff. This is normal during the healing phase. It is probably the last time I will see my doctor. She is leaving the hospital, because she wants more money and the hospital doesn’t want to give it to her. I guess I got everything done just in time, because I couldn’t be more happier about the results.

I got before pictures from her office of my body. I couldn’t believe what I used to look like. It made me feel kind of emotional. All of my life I felt disgust in myself. Looking at those pictures just made me remember how much I hated what I looked like and would do anything to look better. I guess thats why I am reaching my goals. Some people have to hit rock bottom to realize they are screwing up and when I was at my highest weight it hit me.

People say do not go into plastic surgery with high expectations….because you may be very disappointed. After I kept hearing this I had my doubts, because my case was pretty bad as compared to others. Losing over 225lbs at the time I had a lot of loose skin…way more than the normal plastic surgery patient.

After every surgery I felt amazing. The results are far better than I ever imagined….and the feeling is unbelievable. Even when I lost all the weight, I still felt like a prisoner in my own body. I was far better in health, but every time I looked in the mirror I just was in disgust. The funny thing is I wanted to first meet Kim after my surgeries, because I didn’t feel like I was good enough for her. I am very happy I chose to meet her before I had all of my surgeries, because I don’t know if things would be the same….and I don’t even wanna think about it. I wanted to see her so bad I didn’t care about my appearance anymore.

People ask me about my scars. They wonder if they will go away or if they bother me. To be honest, I didn’t worry at all about the scars. I’d rather have these scars than flabs of skin all over my body. If these scars fade, great…if they don’t I could care less. I never felt better in my life and I am proud of these scars.