4/15/10

Today I went for a walk at Ridley Creek State Park. The park is beautiful and it has a nice trail for walkers/joggers/bikers. Kim and I walked 4.3 miles. It felt good to get some exercise in this beautiful weather. A few days ago I lifted and tomorrow will do the same.

My routine isn’t huge, but I think its decent for starters.
Squats
Bench Press
Overhead DB Press
Crunch
Barbell Curls
DB Rows

I have to start doing it 3 times a week now instead of 2. I have to add more cardio in my weeks. I have to add more protein shakes at night like I used to before. I’m slowly getting back on the right habit of things and it feels good.

Tomorrow Kim, I, and a few other people are going to the Phillies game. I am sure there will be lots of tailgating involving eating and drinking. I told myself that this is the last cheat day until I go to Mexico. We go to Mexico May 1st. I know its not a long period of time, but I don’t remember the last time where I didn’t drink on the weekend, and next weekend will be a true test to me.

Saturday, hungover but loving the weather

Well Friday I weighed in at 196.5lbs. I am up 7lbs from the lowest I hit a few weeks ago….not too happy about that. The good news is I am not ALL TOO worried for some reason. I know my diet hasn’t been perfect and I have been lifting a lot recently. Whenever I first begin lifting, I usually gain weight the first week or two, weird.

Last night Kim and I went to the bar and drank a good amount. Its funny how good we do together…..we can do just as bad. Both of us love good foods and to drink……I guess its good we have more stuff in common. I wore a nice dress shirt and actually tucked in. I enjoy getting new clothes now since I can find things in my size. It makes me feel good to dress up and in my eyes I look good compared to what I once was. I went to Kohl’s with Kim this morning to get some pants and long sleeve shirts.

This morning I had a hangover and am really craving bad foods. I even made myself a Bloody Mary. I have never had one before, but I tasted one a while ago….not bad.

Monday

I haven’t updated my journal in a bit. My grand mom died on Friday. I feel really bad, because she is one of the sweetest ladies I have ever met. I haven’t been doing great on my diet either. I had more cheat days than not and am not too happy about that. Going back to work on Tuesday was a drag, and now I am off until Thursday. I get 3 days paid for my grand moms death….so I was off today, tomorrow, and Wednesday.

I have done 3 work outs so far at the gym….not much, but it has really made me sore. The last time I worked out was yesterday and I could tell that the soreness isn’t too bad. That is great news, because I will be able to work out more frequently.

I’m really happy about the Eagles victory yesterday. I drank a good bit with Kim, and after the game we went to this local bar. They were giving away an authentic Jeremy Maclin jersey. Each drink you ordered you would get a ticket. We were only there for maybe 2 hours, but racked up about 12 tickets lol. We ended up winning! I couldn’t believe it. I never win anything like that. I don’t ever think I have won a raffle in all of my life….it was a cool feeling. I wonder what the people at the bar were thinking when we won. They were probably there much longer than us.

Tuesday, back to work

Well today was my first day back at work. I was looking forward to it and I wasn’t. I already miss not having anything to do all day haha. People welcomed me back and said I looked real good which was nice to hear. I thought I was going to get 20 questions all day by everyone, but it was more laid back then I thought.

I was sore all weekend from one little routine I did last week….crazy. Kim and I played tennis twice which was good. Tennis is my favorite cardio right now. I even like to watch it. I am going to workout before work tomorrow. The gym opens up at 5am and I have to be in work by 6:30….I can make it.

I am going to put up some before pictures of me, with after. Hopefully this will help people get an idea of what to expect with surgery. I couldn’t be happier.

Friday, 194.5lbs

Last night Kim and I went to the bar and drank. I drank a pretty good amount….so much I lost count, probably about 7 shots of Jack and 6-7 beers. I ate a lot of shitty food too. I am real pissed at myself. I know its mostly water weight, but I don’t like failing myself. To make up for it I am not going to drink the rest of the weekend. I’m gonna eat good, but will probably have some pizza for dinner. This morning I was sore from the workout and hungover from drinking. I had about one egg today so far and I don’t have much appetite. I went for a 30 min walk and had a good sweat.

I’m tired of feeling insecure. I have always been insecure about my weight and my stuttering problem. I think way too much and I care way too much. I am tired of caring about what others think of me and putting everything ahead of myself. Its time to ease up on giving a shit. I’m not benefiting anything from it. From now on I am going to be more confident and less insecure. I’m tired of worrying and being jealous. I’m only making things worse for me. I am a competitive person and its making it worse. I’m gonna concentrate more on me.

Tuesday

My weekend in Atlantic City was good. Friday we drove up in the pouring rain….hate driving in the pouring rain. We got a free hotel in Harrah’s Casino for 2 nights from someone my aunt knows. The hotel was really nice. We hung out at the hotel for a little to have some drinks, then went down to the casino to gamble. We played roulette the whole time and we both were up at the end of the night (me 80, Kim I think near 200?).

Saturday we got up early, got some breakfast and relaxed a while in the hotel. We gambled a little and I lost all the money I won plus 50. I wasn’t too happy. How was red going to hit 7 times in a row….bullshit.

The Black Crowes put on a good show. I never really listened to them much, so I only know the old popular songs…and they really played a lot of newer songs to me. They still sounded really good and I was impressed.

I drank a good bit and didn’t eat the most healthy stuff….hopefully I still see a loss on Friday. I went for a long walk today…the weather is amazing.

Friday, 189.5lbs

Well I reached the 180s! My goal was 189lbs, but I am .5 shy of that….oh well. I am still pretty happy about the loss, because I have still been recovering from surgery. I’m not really exercising and I haven’t been eating great, just okay.

Today Kim and I are going to Atlantic City. I better enjoy it, because sometime next week is when I start working out again, and eating much better. I hope the weather is nice this weekend, but it doesn’t look like it. Maybe we will just hang in the hotel a little more 🙂

Thursday

This morning I got on the scale and I was at 191lbs. I need to lose 2 more lbs by tomorrow morning in order to reach my weekly goal. If I don’t I think I will be a little disappointed. All this laying around is getting to me more and more….I can’t wait to get back into the gym.

This morning Kim made me the usual egg sandwich and a mocha….I love her cooking. I try to help out when I can and always offer, but she seems to enjoy it. After she went to work I got a shower, went to the post office to hand in some movies from netflix, and went to Wawa for my diet iced tea. Wawa is the best store in the world.

Last night Kim and I watched the final episode of Season 3 of Dexter. It was really good like always. I can’t wait to watch Season 4. We also watched a horror movie called ‘Black Christmas’ (the original). I have seen this movie before but wanted Kim to see it. The movie is a little slow like most old horror movies, but I enjoy them. The movie freaks me out and gets me mad at the same time, because of the ending. I just wish it explained a little more at the end.

Tomorrow I am taking Kim to Atlantic City for the weekend. I got her tickets to see Black Crowes for her birthday. My aunt is setting us up with 2 free nights at Harrahs Casino….pretty damn excited about this trip. Even though I haven’t been working, I need a vacation from laying around this apartment. The weather isn’t supposed to be so great and if it isn’t we will have a good time anyways.

This weekend won’t be good for my diet I bet, but I’m really not going to worry about that….just as long as I keep on losing every week I will be happy.

Tonight is the debut of Michael Vick as a Philadelphia Eagle. It still is crazy that out of all teams who need a QB, the Eagles landed him. I’m pretty excited about the signing. I’m not a big fan about what he has done, but I can’t blame the Eagles for that. I think if Vick shows how sincere he is by helping out the community and whatever…he will be forgiven by many other people.

Tuesday

Today Kim woke me up at 5:30 in the morning asking if I wanted to go for a walk. At first I didn’t want to, but I used to love exercising really early in the morning. Before it got very cold last winter, I would go to the track at 4:00 am before work. The track didn’t have lights but you could see a little bit. It was just me and an old man who probably enjoy it ever since I started going. I would show up and as I passed him he would smile and say hello. I wonder if he is still going to the track at 4 am. Anyways, our walk was nice. It was about a 20-25 minute walk, with a pit stop to wawa for a paper and diet iced tea. During the walk I realized how much stuff Kim and I have in common. She is an amazing girlfriend, and my best friend.

I had an appointment today to take my drain out. All the drains are finally out! It was a great feeling getting the drain out, well…the yanking it out of my stomach was a very weird and sick sensation, but it was worth it. My doctor said I was healing very quickly and was very impressed with how I looked. Everything is still pretty swollen, including my neck which has been bothering me. I want instant results, but she said it takes a while for the final results to appear. I trust her with that, because everything else she did really made me happy. I asked her if I could have my before pictures that she has taken at her office. She is making me copies of them all so I can have just to view and keep my progress recorded. I’m going to start taking progress pictures every two weeks. I can start working out in a week which I am excited about. I’m going to be working out using the New Rules of Lifting.

She also gave me some bad news. I have to take another week off from work. There is no problem with me, it is just that my job is physical and she wants me to relax for another week. A part of me is happy to be off longer, but I think a bigger part of me is really bummed out. My days out of work aren’t too exciting. I just pick up around the apartment and think of as many errands as I can. I wish I could work out atleast, but oh well….gonna just try and enjoy the time I have off.

My doctor is also leaving the hospital she is currently at in the middle of October. This has got me really bummed out, because I just really trusted her after so much time I spent with bettering my life. The first time I seen her I was 290lbs and now I am 100lbs less, and I feel 100x better about my body. She is going to find a good doctor for me, but I know I will miss her. She is a nice lady and did great work on me. I’m glad I had my plastic surgery just in time for her to operate on me and have a few check ups.

I am really bummed out today about the news I received, and early I had a few shots of Jack Daniels. I know I shouldn’t have done it, and regret it, but it was only a couple shots. My girlfriend was going to take me out to cheer me up, but we kind of decided that it wouldn’t be good for our diets.

Saturday

7 beers, 1 shot of jack, and a sugar-free jagerbomb last night

It was the first drinking night I had since August, 8th. I was hoping to drink less than that, but its not as horrible as it could have been. Kim and I went to Chickie’s and Pete’s in South Philly. Its one of the best places to go. It was rated the 3rd best sports bar in the nation. We split a chicken tender sandwich with honey mustard and a big order of crab fries. It was a salt fest yesterday and it showed on the scale.

Kim and I got Season 3 of Dexter from Netflix. I was told a while ago to check out this show by my best friend, because I have a fascination with serial killers. I never gave it a chance until Kim ordered Season One off of Netflix. I was pretty hooked after the third episode. We spent the day at this farmers market called “Booth’s Corner”. It has a ton of different foods and basically an indoor flea market. We made cheese steaks tonight and now relaxing on the couch watching Dexter.